what hv i done?

yeach, what hv i done? hv i asked too much from God? hv i asked more than what i can handle?

no....i believe that whatever God gave, is giving and will be giving would be something that we, as a human being, would be able to bear. whether it's joy, or sadness.

or maybe...maybe i had asked too much.....

suddenly, there are jst quite a bit of stuffs that i am facing. it felt overwhelming, but yet, exciting. always a lot of doubt and fear. but with GOD, everything is possible.

is it something that I asked for? or was this something that God wants me to learn; or is it something that God put in front of me to block my view, so that i would look up to Him even more for directions, leads, and guidance. i felt like there is so much things that is being put on my plate and as my nature, i always want to finish all off at once. in which, that could create stuffiness within myself.
it’s like eating a non-stop buffet, u eventually will get stuffed. maybe it’s more like thanxgiving dinner with the turkey stuffing. or whatever it is. it’s jst stuffy.

am i in over my head, or is this what i meant to be and to do?

please help me GOD to be and stay in the right path; to knock on the right door that you had prepared for me. lead me to U.

sumthin

success is the promise for those who stand true to their ideas...a quote during a sunday's preaching at the church....



"Life is short, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile."
...........a quote from one of the teammates.....

錯過; miss; kangen....

something caught me in the last couple of days...after having been occupied with work, training, and all kind of stuffs, i had not had a chance to see my close friend for a while. at first, i thought, well....maybe it's jst a normal missing feeling; kind of like the feeling that some people had when they missed their family's member, especially after having been not seeing them.

but then, after taking the time to be silent in GOD; pray and kind of take the time to sit by HIM, GOD pointed out to me that it is more HIM that make me miss HIM.

once in a while, i do get feelings from GOD that HE misses me. He misses the time that i make to spend with HIM; to tell HIM stories, to ask for forgiveness, to thank HIM, etc. then again, in general, i don't think GOD misses anybody. i think it's the time that HE makes us, as the human being, that is created by HIM, to acknowledge that all that we can do here is all because of HIM. to keep us grounded. to keep us not to boast, not to think that what we have right now is all our own blood and sweat. we were all living in sin, and yet, HE still accept us. He makes us able and still keeps on blessing me abundantly.

so, it's not that i don't miss my close friend, my family, and anybody else; but it's feeling that GOD put within me to realize and understand that i don't live in this world all by myself. i need people surrounding me, i need help from GOD and GOD uses people around me to help me.

thank GOD for making me realize and grounded.....God bless....