愛

'...love without expectation...'
'...u r indeed loved...'

my g/f said it rite. somehow GOD is teaching both of us to love without expectation and to realize that each one of us is indeed loved, not jst by GOD (4 sure), but also by each other and others.

such a simple word, but yet, so hard to understand and explain. that's why we need GOD every second....

myb

mayb sometimes i'm jst not grateful enuff to the ppl around me. mayb i hd been thankful enuf 4 all these ppl that God surrounds me with.

i hd been used to being on my own. not hvin ppl around me 2 much, but with the more kommunities i'm around with, God surrounds me with ppl that want 2 help me, that want 2 b with me, that want 2 b around me, that wants 2 help me....

to God, thank you so much for all...

to all the ppl, thanx 4 making urself available and willing 2 b used by GOD.

to the special one, i'm sorry if sometimes i forgot to appreciate, forgot to thank; deep inside, i really really do appreciate and very very thankful 4 all that u had done, doing and will be doing.... i really really thank GOD 4 u.....

life

life has a way to change things. life that we have must always b cherished. nobody will ever know what's gonna happen in tomorrow, let alone the next hour, or even the next minute. life is a gift. life is a blessing. life is fragile. life is from GOD. life is gift from GOD for all of us in here to be cherished. not to be wasted. some of us might live life like a waste. we might feel that we are a waste, but it was never intended. even if rite now u feel u are a waste, u still have a chance/an opportunity to make life not wasted. everyone always have a chance to change it. the sooner the better.
this past few days, some of us might had gone thru some very unfortunate situation, whether it is within self, or to the ones that is close to us, or even jst close to our heart and mind. think about those things jst for a moment. not too long tho. don't dwell on it too much. think abt whether there are some things that we can learn from those situation/event. it doesn't mean we have to feel regret. it doesn't mean we have to think lie, '...oh, i should've done this/that differently...' but it's more to do some thing after it. learn from it. change our perspective abt certain things. do something different. do something special. do something that u never thought u'd b doing ever. do something more of what u had done, that is good, or even great.
hug someone more. kiss someone more. care abt someone more. call someone more. volunteer more. give more. anything and everything that u can think of that u'r not used to do, or maybe u had done less.
to the one(s) that i cared the most, i will do my best, and yet GOD is always by ur side(s).
to the one that i may not know very well and might not got a chance to meet, u r indeed with GOD...now....

...there will never be a day when we won’t need dedication, discipline, energy, and the feeling that we can change things for the better... – a quote from george sheehan

...overcoming barriers to performance is how groups become teams...

what hv i done?

yeach, what hv i done? hv i asked too much from God? hv i asked more than what i can handle?

no....i believe that whatever God gave, is giving and will be giving would be something that we, as a human being, would be able to bear. whether it's joy, or sadness.

or maybe...maybe i had asked too much.....

suddenly, there are jst quite a bit of stuffs that i am facing. it felt overwhelming, but yet, exciting. always a lot of doubt and fear. but with GOD, everything is possible.

is it something that I asked for? or was this something that God wants me to learn; or is it something that God put in front of me to block my view, so that i would look up to Him even more for directions, leads, and guidance. i felt like there is so much things that is being put on my plate and as my nature, i always want to finish all off at once. in which, that could create stuffiness within myself.
it’s like eating a non-stop buffet, u eventually will get stuffed. maybe it’s more like thanxgiving dinner with the turkey stuffing. or whatever it is. it’s jst stuffy.

am i in over my head, or is this what i meant to be and to do?

please help me GOD to be and stay in the right path; to knock on the right door that you had prepared for me. lead me to U.

sumthin

success is the promise for those who stand true to their ideas...a quote during a sunday's preaching at the church....



"Life is short, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile."
...........a quote from one of the teammates.....

錯過; miss; kangen....

something caught me in the last couple of days...after having been occupied with work, training, and all kind of stuffs, i had not had a chance to see my close friend for a while. at first, i thought, well....maybe it's jst a normal missing feeling; kind of like the feeling that some people had when they missed their family's member, especially after having been not seeing them.

but then, after taking the time to be silent in GOD; pray and kind of take the time to sit by HIM, GOD pointed out to me that it is more HIM that make me miss HIM.

once in a while, i do get feelings from GOD that HE misses me. He misses the time that i make to spend with HIM; to tell HIM stories, to ask for forgiveness, to thank HIM, etc. then again, in general, i don't think GOD misses anybody. i think it's the time that HE makes us, as the human being, that is created by HIM, to acknowledge that all that we can do here is all because of HIM. to keep us grounded. to keep us not to boast, not to think that what we have right now is all our own blood and sweat. we were all living in sin, and yet, HE still accept us. He makes us able and still keeps on blessing me abundantly.

so, it's not that i don't miss my close friend, my family, and anybody else; but it's feeling that GOD put within me to realize and understand that i don't live in this world all by myself. i need people surrounding me, i need help from GOD and GOD uses people around me to help me.

thank GOD for making me realize and grounded.....God bless....

busy

really, i had been busy, well...if u think working from before 8am to even after 8pm consider busy, then yes, i was busy. today was the first ever day that i was able to take time to not waking up @5 in the morning, not worrying about the training, about work, about anything. rest, yes, that's it, this was the first time i could get a rest day. rest from pretty much everything that i had been doing. wow, that actually felt good. i can actually enjoy some getaway time and really really enojying coffee @ a no rush pace. i can finally enjoy the surroundings, watching people around, enjoying the view and oh yeach....escaping from the 'white death' that was happening somewhere else.

then again, maybe i just need to see some sun, and yet, the sun had been hiding for sometime, because the area had been covered with snows, clouds, and all the stuffs that made the winter felt like it was not gonna be over.

what had i learned?

i found out that despite the fact that i had worked so hard in the amount of time that i had spent at work, i still need to work even harder. so, this 'break'/'rest' thing was probably and definitely a good thing and needed. at least, that's what i think.

it was at this time that i was able to sit back, rest, relax, reflex, and even think bat what GOD had done for me. for the blessings, for the signs, for the 'coverings', for the care, everything that HE is providing for me.