so, after the past days episode that I had, I finally feel better now. a couple of my friends started calling, text messaging and asking me about what had happened. even some of co-workers was kind of trying to keep distance from me, but now I think it’s a little settle, man……I guess I was really having a not so good days at all, huh? Oh well…..
and, after talking with a couple of my friends and explaining about what had happened, I think I’m pretty ok now. as I said to one of my co-workers, I’m trying to calm myself this week; try to balance; try to center myself. In other words, I guess, u can say I am trying to draw closer to GOD this week, not because I was not close before, but I think with ash wednesday just passed and the lent is on going; I am reminded to always have to try be close to HIM. draw myself to HIM.
in one way, I was actually on track on doing it with help of my friend. my friend sent me a link to a preaching from the web. the title is ‘one life to live’ by joey bonifacio.
pretty interesting, and not too long, I was able to listen to it while I biked on my trainer. good insight and as for me, it was confirming and reminding. I was reminded to always live life to the fullest/max. I was reminded to always fear HIM; not fear HIM in the sense of fear of getting spank. It was confirming that in the life that u live, live it to the fullest, for tomorrow may/may not come. live today so that if tomorrow does not come, u won’t regret anything. Just like one of my friends write in her facebook page -> ‘…if what u did yesterday looks good, then u haven’t done much today…’
all in all, thank GOD for everything that U had done, are doing, and will be doing in my life……God bless 2 u all that read this……
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Saturday, February 21, 2009
kind of crazy week...
oh my goodness, thank God that it is now weekend. and, i can finally do something that i probably should be doing for the past few weeks ago. i was able to rest.
this week had been going on very very weird. the week started great with a surprise morning visit from my friend (as to this is never happen to me, especially at 7 o'clock in the morning); then in mid week, the day got a little bit sucky, but yet i got some help with the uplifting spirit from HIM thru worship. then, all of the sudden, it all went a little downhill from there. i felt so tired and quite so bad, especially with the way i treated this special friend. sorry....i probably owe this person an apology and an explanation. but here is how i felt; i felt like i could hardly breathe and every time i tried to put some air into my lungs, i had to take a very deep breathe and sometime i think it even sounded like i was stressed, or maybe feeling agitated. i didn't think so. i guess what my supervisor said in the e-mail last friday nite; '...i think u need to go home now...' was rite; as my friend agreed.
i was totally busy at work, don't get me wrong, not that i'm complaining, but indeed thankful to God for all these. it just that i have not been this busy ever in my work life. so much stuffs that i need to do. so many projects that i'm working on. can't believe that i'm actually working on 4 projects all at once. thank GOD for giving me the abilities to differentiate between one project need to another.
so, this morning, i went to the team workout, guess what? my hr went up to the roof and it was an ez recovery workout. can't believe it. well...i guess that's one of the things about being tired. and actually i just remember vividly that this might be the condition that i was last year when i had my crash. i was tired, and yet i was not feeling ok either. i was not hydrating enough, did not drink enough, especially water. but yet, i was not thirsty; not sure whether i was so busy that i cannot even remember to drink anything, or whatever not sure.
and, after workout, i finally was able to just rest. i sat and laid on my couch for 2 hours; doing nothing. well....watch tv. altho i was not watching anything in particular, but somehow i just realize that i actually keep track of the amount of time that i watch tv and rest. oh my goodness......can't believe that i actually did that; that was the first.
now, i actually feel better. i am able to kind of breathe a little easier, altho still on occasion, a little hard and need the deep breathe, but u know what? this whole week, i had been reminded with the verse from Mat 28:11; '...come to ME all who are weary and tired, for I will give u rest...' and now, another verse is reminded to me; not sure where the exact verse is, but it said like this, '...be still and know that I am GOD...'
thank u LORD and GOD bless to all who read this.....thanx....
this week had been going on very very weird. the week started great with a surprise morning visit from my friend (as to this is never happen to me, especially at 7 o'clock in the morning); then in mid week, the day got a little bit sucky, but yet i got some help with the uplifting spirit from HIM thru worship. then, all of the sudden, it all went a little downhill from there. i felt so tired and quite so bad, especially with the way i treated this special friend. sorry....i probably owe this person an apology and an explanation. but here is how i felt; i felt like i could hardly breathe and every time i tried to put some air into my lungs, i had to take a very deep breathe and sometime i think it even sounded like i was stressed, or maybe feeling agitated. i didn't think so. i guess what my supervisor said in the e-mail last friday nite; '...i think u need to go home now...' was rite; as my friend agreed.
i was totally busy at work, don't get me wrong, not that i'm complaining, but indeed thankful to God for all these. it just that i have not been this busy ever in my work life. so much stuffs that i need to do. so many projects that i'm working on. can't believe that i'm actually working on 4 projects all at once. thank GOD for giving me the abilities to differentiate between one project need to another.
so, this morning, i went to the team workout, guess what? my hr went up to the roof and it was an ez recovery workout. can't believe it. well...i guess that's one of the things about being tired. and actually i just remember vividly that this might be the condition that i was last year when i had my crash. i was tired, and yet i was not feeling ok either. i was not hydrating enough, did not drink enough, especially water. but yet, i was not thirsty; not sure whether i was so busy that i cannot even remember to drink anything, or whatever not sure.
and, after workout, i finally was able to just rest. i sat and laid on my couch for 2 hours; doing nothing. well....watch tv. altho i was not watching anything in particular, but somehow i just realize that i actually keep track of the amount of time that i watch tv and rest. oh my goodness......can't believe that i actually did that; that was the first.
now, i actually feel better. i am able to kind of breathe a little easier, altho still on occasion, a little hard and need the deep breathe, but u know what? this whole week, i had been reminded with the verse from Mat 28:11; '...come to ME all who are weary and tired, for I will give u rest...' and now, another verse is reminded to me; not sure where the exact verse is, but it said like this, '...be still and know that I am GOD...'
thank u LORD and GOD bless to all who read this.....thanx....
Sunday, February 1, 2009
words for 2009
these are the words that i found in the beginning of 2009 that i felt really really hit me. really really give me a revelation for this year. this one, i heard it about a couple of weeks ago and i think this applies to me in so many ways. for training, for races, for work, and for everyday life in general.
faith is trust in Christ sufficient to provoke obedience to Christ and to receive benefits
what does having faith do?
faith battles temptation
for about a month, i had been in fasting mode. somehow this year, almost everybody that i met started the year with fasting; which i think it's great. knowing that the people surrounding also doing something somewhat similar to what u'r doing. during this fasting period, those words up there really really struck me. it gives me a new perspective about faith. for the longest time, i thought some certain things that i had been doing is rite. well.....not entirely. those things that i did might be not wrong, but it gave me a different meaning and perspective about the things that i'm doing.
this fasting period really really give me a new meaning of fasting. a new meaning of needing to have more faith in HIM. does it mean i lack faith? maybe; maybe not.
in the beginning of this year, as i said in my blog previously, somehow, i felt GOD wants me to have more faith in HIM. to trust HIM even more. to have belief more in HIM that what i think i can do.
well, guess what? i think i'm learning that rite now. and, somehow, i felt that there are people surrounding me that pray for me about this specifically. from the closest one, to the casual ones, to even the ones that i just knew.
the fasting period taught me to trust in HIM more and more everyday, that i actually felt provoke to be obedience to GOD. and each day, at the end of the fasting days, i actually felt that i'm receiving benefits. one of them surprisingly, i felt my training have become more effective. at the same time, i felt that i can battle temptation better than ever. so.....out of all that....thank u, GOD....
faith is trust in Christ sufficient to provoke obedience to Christ and to receive benefits
what does having faith do?
faith battles temptation
for about a month, i had been in fasting mode. somehow this year, almost everybody that i met started the year with fasting; which i think it's great. knowing that the people surrounding also doing something somewhat similar to what u'r doing. during this fasting period, those words up there really really struck me. it gives me a new perspective about faith. for the longest time, i thought some certain things that i had been doing is rite. well.....not entirely. those things that i did might be not wrong, but it gave me a different meaning and perspective about the things that i'm doing.
this fasting period really really give me a new meaning of fasting. a new meaning of needing to have more faith in HIM. does it mean i lack faith? maybe; maybe not.
in the beginning of this year, as i said in my blog previously, somehow, i felt GOD wants me to have more faith in HIM. to trust HIM even more. to have belief more in HIM that what i think i can do.
well, guess what? i think i'm learning that rite now. and, somehow, i felt that there are people surrounding me that pray for me about this specifically. from the closest one, to the casual ones, to even the ones that i just knew.
the fasting period taught me to trust in HIM more and more everyday, that i actually felt provoke to be obedience to GOD. and each day, at the end of the fasting days, i actually felt that i'm receiving benefits. one of them surprisingly, i felt my training have become more effective. at the same time, i felt that i can battle temptation better than ever. so.....out of all that....thank u, GOD....
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