shades...

last week, i stopped by my friend's church group. it is always interesting, pretty cool and nice to take part in that group. they do a lot of discussion and study of the bible verse. I like it in the sense that they go into depth in discussing about the verses. it gives everybody a chance to digest and really really meditate the verses. makes u think about certain things. It makes u think differently about certain things that u might have done and/or thought about in the past.
one of the girl (em) from the group during discussion made a funny face, well….not really a funny face, but I guess it was because what I said and thought that she made a face that showed, ‘….wow…..yeach…..eureka….’ which I guess for me it definitely was funny, in a good way…….hope I didn’t make her feel bad……and besides, she reminded of a verse about the past and possibly the condition that could be during the race in gct. it is from isa 25:4; '...a shade from the heat...' oh yeach, i definitely need a lot of shades from the heat down south during the race. i really do thank GOD for her to bless me by reminding me; reminding me to always seek a shade in HIM for HE is always available to give anything that we need.

fears and failures

this past week at church, i was again reminded that, as a human being, regardless of our past and current condition, GOD is always on our side. i always have fears and failures. fears of being a failures. fears fof the thing that i'm doping is not good enough; whether it is for me, whether it is for my family, my parent, my brother, my sister, my friends, my co-workers, etc. in some ways, i think people would think that it's normal, but yet, is it really? is it really normal? is it really something normal for christians to have that feelings? did Jesus have that feelings while He was here?
it is indeed true that GOD is always with us. HE will always comfort us. HE will always take care of us. i, personally, never really want to have that feelings, but yet, there is always something around us that could make us feel that way. whether it is a person, a situation, an event, or anything. many times, it will definitely bother u, well...at least it is for me. is there anything that u can do? any suggestions? what did HE do? what's the reason for HIM to let us have that feelings?
from the bible, i do learn that GOD had fears. HE feared during the time when HE was about to be crucified. but, is it the same feeling tho? how did he deal with it? one of the ways is pray. many times when i had that feeling, i would pray and surrender all my fears and failures to HIM. is it the only way then? any other ways?