oh my goodness, thank God that it is now weekend. and, i can finally do something that i probably should be doing for the past few weeks ago. i was able to rest.
this week had been going on very very weird. the week started great with a surprise morning visit from my friend (as to this is never happen to me, especially at 7 o'clock in the morning); then in mid week, the day got a little bit sucky, but yet i got some help with the uplifting spirit from HIM thru worship. then, all of the sudden, it all went a little downhill from there. i felt so tired and quite so bad, especially with the way i treated this special friend. sorry....i probably owe this person an apology and an explanation. but here is how i felt; i felt like i could hardly breathe and every time i tried to put some air into my lungs, i had to take a very deep breathe and sometime i think it even sounded like i was stressed, or maybe feeling agitated. i didn't think so. i guess what my supervisor said in the e-mail last friday nite; '...i think u need to go home now...' was rite; as my friend agreed.
i was totally busy at work, don't get me wrong, not that i'm complaining, but indeed thankful to God for all these. it just that i have not been this busy ever in my work life. so much stuffs that i need to do. so many projects that i'm working on. can't believe that i'm actually working on 4 projects all at once. thank GOD for giving me the abilities to differentiate between one project need to another.
so, this morning, i went to the team workout, guess what? my hr went up to the roof and it was an ez recovery workout. can't believe it. well...i guess that's one of the things about being tired. and actually i just remember vividly that this might be the condition that i was last year when i had my crash. i was tired, and yet i was not feeling ok either. i was not hydrating enough, did not drink enough, especially water. but yet, i was not thirsty; not sure whether i was so busy that i cannot even remember to drink anything, or whatever not sure.
and, after workout, i finally was able to just rest. i sat and laid on my couch for 2 hours; doing nothing. well....watch tv. altho i was not watching anything in particular, but somehow i just realize that i actually keep track of the amount of time that i watch tv and rest. oh my goodness......can't believe that i actually did that; that was the first.
now, i actually feel better. i am able to kind of breathe a little easier, altho still on occasion, a little hard and need the deep breathe, but u know what? this whole week, i had been reminded with the verse from Mat 28:11; '...come to ME all who are weary and tired, for I will give u rest...' and now, another verse is reminded to me; not sure where the exact verse is, but it said like this, '...be still and know that I am GOD...'
thank u LORD and GOD bless to all who read this.....thanx....
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